Craked

I hate to prove stereotypes about woman right, especially ones about being overly emotional, but what can I say I'm and egg that's so easily crack. This afternoon I had a melt down about nothing and everything. I suppose the feeling of success wouldn't be so wonderful if you didn't have to work for it, and suffer minor breakdowns along the way. I find it hard to feel like I've ever done enough in a day, and yet it is hard to be disciplined to use the time you have to the fullest. Working out of my apartment, alone for the better part of the week with my emails, and deadlines, and the pressure of the best, isn't helping my state of mind. I used to be such a confident women, though I suppose I was really a girl. When you are young and fearless its easy to feel like your on top. Its you against the world and you don't care what they think. Yet I have learned so much about the world since then and somehow it almost makes me more scared of it. I hope the  that the stereotype is not true for all but unfortunately its true for me, so who knows. Maybe they are right maybe it has something to do with hormones and estrogen and the chemicals in our brain. All i know is that it honestly scares me when I cry like I did today. I can only hope that I won't always be so fragile, but maybe fragility isn't such a bad thing.